A Letter For My B*

It’s a new journey for me down a path I have never traveled.
Scary yet so wonderful at the same time.
I know the scary part will go away
So we can enjoy the feelings we have without fear.

I sometimes feel I don’t fulfill your needs
And I hate myself for that
I truly get stuck and feel helpless
And confused.

I want to take your hand. To hold you.
At least mentally if I cannot physically do so.
But sometimes I fail. And for that I am so so sorry.
It pains me so much sometimes.

I love you with all my heart. And I know you love me too
This is the bond that will never break, as I learn to be what you want and need.
We will go places, you and I. Together.
I love you darling. And I hope you always love me too. It is what keeps me going now.

Please forgive me for anything I have failed you.
Or made you sad.
I love you so very much.

You must be a mind reader. Despite the distance, you have this uncanny ability to sense when I hit rock bottom and what button to push to make me smile again.

You keep making me fall in love to you. Over and over. Again and again.