A Letter For My B*

It’s a new journey for me down a path I have never traveled.
Scary yet so wonderful at the same time.
I know the scary part will go away
So we can enjoy the feelings we have without fear.

I sometimes feel I don’t fulfill your needs
And I hate myself for that
I truly get stuck and feel helpless
And confused.

I want to take your hand. To hold you.
At least mentally if I cannot physically do so.
But sometimes I fail. And for that I am so so sorry.
It pains me so much sometimes.

I love you with all my heart. And I know you love me too
This is the bond that will never break, as I learn to be what you want and need.
We will go places, you and I. Together.
I love you darling. And I hope you always love me too. It is what keeps me going now.

Please forgive me for anything I have failed you.
Or made you sad.
I love you so very much.

You must be a mind reader. Despite the distance, you have this uncanny ability to sense when I hit rock bottom and what button to push to make me smile again.

You keep making me fall in love to you. Over and over. Again and again.

When Heavy Weight Being Lifted

Feel so light make me feel I could fly. Feel so free I could scream in public.

Thank you baby. For doing it for us. I know it's not easy for you. And I love you double for that.